Dark Confessions of an Extraordinary Ordinary Woman
Jenn Sadai
Author Bio
Writing has always been a passion for Jenn Sadai. She started writing poetry in elementary school and even published her first short story when she was only thirteen. Unfortunately, unexpected responsibilities and significant debt knocked her off course at an early age. It wasn’t until someone she loved was faced with a terminal illness that she decided to risk it all and pursue her dream of becoming a published author. Dark Confessions of an Extraordinary, Ordinary Woman is Jenn Sadai’s first attempt in what she plans on being a long and rewarding career as a novelist. Her second novel, Dirty Secrets of the World’s Worst Employee, will be available online in September, 2015. Her second book is actually a memoir that follows Jenn’s crooked career path in the world of hospitality, retail buying, and manufacturing that ultimately resulted in her finding her true calling. Jenn Sadai was born in Windsor, Ontario, where she still resides with her wonderful husband, four fantastic stepchildren, and two loveable labs. She is an avid runner who has finished two full marathons and five half-marathons. Jenn Sadai is a strong believer that anything in life is possible when you make your goals a priority.
Description
Dark Confessions of an Extraordinary, Ordinary Woman is an honest and emotional coming-of-age story that proves everything in life happens for a reason. It follows the author from a fearless little girl, to an insecure teenager, to a confident woman who truly knows her worth in this world. The story begins with the author’s crazy and reckless rebellion after her parent’s divorce. Alcohol, drugs, and petty crimes were the inevitable consequence of a young child being left to her own devices.
After many dangerous and troubling encounters, Jenn tries to redirect her life path in a positive direction before heading off to college, but instead she ends up falling in love with a man who would nearly kill her six years later. Shane, who she believes is the love-of-her-life, has a kind and gentle heart when they first meet. Sadly his views on the world are later darkened by his best friend’s suicide and his father’s untimely death. Shane turns to hardcore drug use and their once healthy relationship becomes increasingly dark and destructive. He begins stealing from her, insulting her, and even once tried to smother her in her sleep with a pillow. Fortunately Jenn fought off the attack, however, she then spends several more months trying to save herself and Shane. Finally, Jenn realizes that she can only save herself and permanently ends the relationship.
Life however, is not that simple. Jenn sinks into drug use and depression after leaving the six year relationship and comes very close to taking her own life. If it wasn’t for a surprising wake-up call in Vegas, her story would have ended quite tragically. The main character is reminded of her talents and decides to take control of her life and spin it in a new, positive direction. She rebuilds her self-esteem by setting tough goals, like finishing a marathon, and then doing whatever it takes to achieve them. Dark Confessions of an Extraordinary, Ordinary Woman addresses ordinary issues like teenage rebellion, abusive relationships, drug addiction, and depression in an extraordinarily inspiring way. Jenn came very close to losing her life before realizing that she was valuable and worth saving.
Book excerpt
Everything in life happens for a reason. I wasted years of my life worrying, stressing, and second
guessing myself on every decision I made before I finally came to that conclusion. It took
surviving the hardest moments of my life to learn how to simply let go and just believe in
myself. I verbally attacked myself for most of my teens and twenties before learning how to love
myself in my thirties.
Does this sound familiar?
It is a self-discovery journey that most women go on. Too many of us allow self-doubt, foolish
insecurities, and poor self-esteem creep into our lives somewhere between needing our first bra
and buying our first vibrator. Our focus shifts towards pleasing the people around us and we stop
focusing on our own goals and ambitions. Most women survive these turbulent teenage years
unscathed, while others become victim to their lack of self-worth.
Or maybe that was just me?
I was a dreamer when I was young. I had ridiculous goals and thought I was invincible. My
parents can attest to that fact. I was fearless, adventurous, and incredibly klutzy. I climbed on
everything when I was a kid, which meant I fell off everything.
I fell off the monkey bars and lost a tooth in the dirt when I was seven. I also fell off our roof
when I was nine and broke my arm. I fell off the bleachers at a baseball game, I fell off our fence
(which I used as a tight-rope), and I fell off a foot-high step that caused me to break my arm for a
second time. I was constantly tripping over my feet and landing on my face, but I always got up.
Once I learned that my life was valuable, I started to treat it that way. All I did was change my
attitude and everything in my life got better. I made incredible friends, rebuilt
damaged relationships, landed great jobs, and revived the overachiever that I was as a kid.
Simply because I was in the right place at the right time (yes, another cliché), I am now happily
married to a kind man who truly loves me. My life is good now.
There was a dark time when I didn’t think that would ever be possible. I went from being a
fearless child who was ready to take the world by storm to a scared little girl wishing my life
would end. I’ve finally regained the strength and confidence I once had as a child, which is why I
am now making a career as a writer and why you are reading this novel.
In recent years, I have used my willpower and my determination to get into the best physical,
emotional, and mental shape of my life. I didn’t know that I even had any willpower or
determination until I hit rock bottom. Those powerful qualities were lying dormant with my
confidence and self-esteem.
Ten years ago I was a drug addicted, chain-smoking thief who willingly stayed in a physically,
emotionally, and mentally abusive relationship for several years longer than I should.
Fortunately, I was lucky enough to survive all of life’s major tragedies despite the lack of effort
on my part. I allowed control over my own life to be stolen from me without ever fighting to get
it back and as a result I came eerily close to dying three times within the same year. Until I
decided to share this story, no one in my life ever really knew how close I came to my final
good-bye.
But I will get to all of that drama much later.
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